Let me out

take a journey with me inside my mind,
We'll travel from the depths up to the divine.

You'll reel in terror, you'll die from shock,
only to wake up again, before 9 o’clock

Let's start in the past, my “father” died,
they all said sorry with sorrowful eyes.

but how sorry were they? I may never know,
just like my mind to you, I can't fully show.

There was no love for me back then,
I was a child, alone, no parents, no friends.

I was hurting & hated, I was silent & loud.
I was both too smart & too stupid, too timid, too proud.

too greedy, too sinful, but I wasn't enough,
I didn't know anything, but I knew too much.

I’m all these years later, still picking up pieces,
still confused & hurt, counting the seasons.

Hoping for the day when I figure it out,
when I find the key to my life, let me out, let me out.